PCOS Food

So I thought I would write a short little blog to share one of the most amazing things I’ve discovered lately: Ener-G Light White Rice and Flax loaf.

So here is the break down-one slice of this bread has 7 grams of carbs and 50 calories. The slices aren’t exactly the same size as a regular slice of bread, but it’s good enough. So basically, it has 1/3 the carbs of a slice of whole wheat bread which has 18 grams of carbs, and on average fewer calories.

If you look up the reviews of this bread online you might be scared to try it. Flavor-wise, the bread taste like wheat bread with a slightly stronger “nutty” taste (only slightly) and the texture isn’t as soft (it’s a little dryer) than regular bread.

However, when you toast this stuff- it’s perfect (or freakishly close). Taste just like a piece of normal toast. So you can toast it to make a sandwich (so good, even for a cold sandwich), add butter and cinnamon for a great piece of breakfast toast- etc. However I don’t suggest using it for things like hot browns or open faced sandwiches with gravy as it get’s soggy.

So if you are looking for a great low carb bread substitute this stuff will definitely fit the bill (when toasted…still good un-toasted, but once again- dry and odd texture).  I highly recommend trying it fellow PCOS girls! 2 slices of the stuff with 3 slices of turkey lunch meat (20 cals a slice), a slice of provolone cheese (70 cals a slice), a slice of lettuce (negligible cals), and quick spread of mayo (~15 cals) gets you a great low cal/carb lunch that is healthy, filling, and more like what you are craving!

25 Questions

• 1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel? I have a lot of trouble looking into someone’s eyes period haha.
• 2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way? Hm. Well Jay and I had a fight a couple of weeks ago. He was drunk and turned a small issue into a major issue just by not thinking about what he was saying…plus we hardly ever fight so I was frustrated over the situation…haha so yeah I was mad.
• 3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call? What do you tell them? You know, I would say my mom…but she NEVER answers the phone so it would be a wasted phone call. So I guess I would call Jay.
• 4. You are at the doctor’s office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days? Would you be afraid? I probably wouldn’t tell anyone. I would just try to be the best person I possibly could be and try to do some of the things I’d always wanted to do but been too afraid to do before. I’d be scared…but not too badly so.
• 5. You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why? Love and Trust. You can’t have love without trust, so this question is invalid.
• 6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dogs life? Why or Why not? YES! That is a LIFE. I can always get another job.
• 7. Would you rather be hurt by the one you trust the most or the one you love the most? For me, those are the same person.
• 8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more than just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you (or did you) do/say? I point blank told him that I only thought of him as a friend and had made that more than clear to him and wished he hadn’t chosen to say those things to me even though he KNEW that. It just put me in an awkward situation when he should have known my response. I told him we couldn’t be friends until those feelings were gone.
• 9. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give up one year of yours. Do you do it? Why or Why not? Yes. I would gladly give a year of my life to bring Ben back for his mother even if it is just one hour.
• 10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend? Yeah I guess. Haha.
• 11. Does love = sex? Nope.
• 12.Your boss tells your coworker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your coworker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the company? Why or Why not? Honestly…probably not. But I would offer that coworker help if they needed it.
• 13.When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? Who was it? What did you have to tell the person? Um. Probably never. ^_^’ I’m not good at expressing how I feel to people.
• 14. What would be (or what was) harder for you to tell a member of the opposite sex, you love them or that you do not love them back? That I love them.
• 15. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose? My cat Rascal. I know that sounds pathetic but she has been with me through EVERYTHING and I love her so much. She can’t be replaced.
• 16. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them. Who were they to you? Hum. Probably to Noah James <3 He’s my baby brother haha.
• 17. If there was one moment and one time in the last month what would you change and why? That fight I mentioned before. It was dumb, and shouldn’t have happened.
• 18.Imagine it is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, you hear someone walking around outside your window. WHO do you wish was there with you? Jay. Haha.
• 19. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? Why or Why not? Yes. Homeless people’s lives are still important.
• 21.You are holding onto your grandmother’s hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their death? What was your rationale for making the decision? My grandmother. She has lived her life and I’m sure that she would rather me save the baby as well. Nothing is harder than some mother somewhere losing their child- as adults, we are prepared for the eventual loss of our grandmother.
• 22. Are you old fashioned? Eh. Not really.
• 23. When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it? Most everyday haha.
• 24.Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all? Why? I would rather never love at all. I don’t believe that true love would ever end in a broken heart unless it was due to the other person dying…and if that were the case I couldn’t handle it. I’d rather never love.
• 25.If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be? Honestly…money. I would always be able to support myself.

PCOS

I know I started off strong when it came to my PCOS diet and then fell off the train pretty hard…

But today I am getting back to it! I’m taking my Metformin every day and cutting out as many carbs as possible.

Started my morning off right with 2 eggs, scrambled. I feel full and satisfied :) I am also going to start working in 30 mins of exercise everyday. Any suggestions?

:)

I’m so blessed to have Jay. Honestly, every day with him is amazing. He always makes me happy and always makes me feel beautiful and loved.

He also has such a great and fun family. I was feeling insecure about how his family felt about me not really due to any of their actions, but just based on that fact that Ryan’s family basically has me traumatized (they were at Abbey Road on the River too! Ugh…)

But I don’t really feel that way anymore. Like last weekend I overheard Jay’s mom telling him that I was part of the family and was always invited to things, that Jay didn’t have to ask. Then today Reid’s (Jay’s dad) family had a get together for memorial day and Nancy was talking to someone and was telling them how they were “So blessed when it came to their son’s girlfriends.” and was going on and on about how much she liked Jessica (his brother’s girlfriend) and myself. :)

I miss spending time with Jay though…I mean…I just saw him…but it’s hard to spend days a part, and Jay is bummed that I won’t be coming home tomorrow evening like I had hoped would happen.

I also miss my friends though, especially Kaitlin. Butttttttt I’ll get to see her on Weds ;D Yayyyyyy!

Shopping

I love shopping, but ever since I gained all this weight due to my insulin resistance it has definitely been a more depressing experience for me :(

I mean…I was trying on SIZE 13 shorts today…which is crazy! I mean all my jeans are size 8 or 9 right now…which is why I have no idea why size 13 shorts is what fit today…crazy depressing :(

But people say I look great, and guys think I’m hot…so Idk. My waist is practically the same exact size it was when I was a size 5 so I still fit the same size tops…but like…this time 2 years ago I was size 3 in pants, 5 in shorts (I think I wear a bigger shorts size simply because I do tend to carry weight in my butt and thighs so when things are very fitting in those areas on shorts it looks funny to me so I go a size up).

I miss being skinny…to go from a fit young little lass to being overweight in the course of only 4 months was shocking to me…and still is. I had always been able to lose weight at the drop of a hat before, but now just getting a couple of pounds off is a major struggle for me…

And my sister is SO SKINNY. Like I used to be. Seeing her makes me feel bad about the way I look now.

At least Jay thinks I’m gorgeous :/ My weight gain didn’t seem to freak him out at all… which is good…I guess…

Putting on my first pair of shorts tomorrow since the weight gain…it’s scary.